I feel.

I feel like I felt one year ago. The emotion is not something I can describe in one word. Then again, few things in the world that are not commands can be described in one word.

Freedom? Or a lack of purpose? One thing for sure, I am more easily stressed and depressed. Especially when I return to my room, isolated from my friends.

My room is fundamentally wrong. It is a spacious room that vomits at you possibilities. To the left, classic novels and scientific treatises, and a handful of manuals upon a woeful bookshelf. In front a featureless L-shaped set of two desks showcasing with pride a printer, a filing tray, my laptop, and miscellaneous items.

The bed is low, and minimal -- a pillow and three non-matching cushions, and the blanket is not done. The wardrobe has no doors, accessible from both sides. The lampshade is absent, in its place are four sheets of red paper holding up folded boats. And a standing fan.

My room is a mess of possibilities and distractions geared to a deficit soul. My room envelops and swallows me into its rich yet hollow world, screaming at me, "Do something with me! Look at me! I have blank DVDs you have yet to burn! I have books yet unread! I have paperwork yet unorganized! My floor needs cleaning! Look at me! Look at me!"

And here I live, in an uncarnate bubble of time lost helplessly chasing immaterial possibilities.

I feel that I have regressed in time, yet progressed in perspective.

I feel that I am once again in control of everything that goes around me and happens to me, and that is a very lonely thought.

I feel that it is going to be a long time till I encounter something or someone that can surprise me.

I feel that I have not much excitement to anticipate, for my ambitions now sometimes seem trivial to attain.

I feel peaceful.

And the emotions of WeFeelFine stream through my mind...

"i feel like a idiot"

"i never want to feel that"

"i feel safe though i cannot move my legs"

"i feel whenever i finish a volume and after having read volume 5 of honey and clover the waiting will be excruciating"

"i feel proud to be british"

"i feel better than you"

"i don't feel right"

"i do know that you are exactly what i thought you were it makes me feel better about myself"

"i actually feel a lot better now thanks to all the pain you put me through"

"i wanted my students to feel that i appreciated them by giving them journals"

"i was feeling blue"

"i feel like i'll have to wear rainbow suspenders and a beer hat when i scoot scoot around on this chariot"

Haha.